{"product_id":"anotherandom-emotionally-unavailable-black","title":"Anotherandom - Emotionally Unavailable - Black","description":"\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eWhen the first tear drops, death means nothing to me.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eNot because I am brave, not because I am asking for it, but because in that moment, even fear feels too heavy to carry.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003ePain goes so far sometimes it stops feeling like pain.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt just becomes the air around me.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThe room.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThe weight.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThe thing that keeps dragging me back down every time I try to be better than this.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eSomething always wears me out.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eGuilt. Trauma. Fear. Memory. Myself.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eSomething always does.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eAnd gravity always wins.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI look real because I am real.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThat is what makes it worse.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI can laugh, speak, reply, show up, act like I’m still inside my own body, but half the time I feel like I could tear through the ceiling and run until nothing can find me.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eStill, I stay long enough to wear myself down again.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eStill, I fail to become the person I keep asking myself to be.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThis is my emotionally unavailable.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eNot distant.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eNot heartless.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eJust too tired to keep opening the same wound and calling it connection.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cmeta charset=\"utf-8\"\u003e\n\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0518\/3524\/0616\/files\/AR_Website_SizeChart_01-04.png?v=1776923761\" alt=\"\"\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cmeta charset=\"utf-8\"\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cmeta charset=\"utf-8\"\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Anotheradom","offers":[{"title":"Small","offer_id":48757322055909,"sku":"FT-EU-BLK-01","price":99.0,"currency_code":"MYR","in_stock":true},{"title":"Medium","offer_id":48757322088677,"sku":"FT-EU-BLK-02","price":99.0,"currency_code":"MYR","in_stock":false},{"title":"Large","offer_id":48757322121445,"sku":"FT-EU-BLK-03","price":99.0,"currency_code":"MYR","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0518\/3524\/0616\/files\/AR_Website_SKU_B1_EU_01-01.webp?v=1776417602","url":"https:\/\/anythingjb.com\/ko-kr\/products\/anotherandom-emotionally-unavailable-black","provider":"ANYTHING JB","version":"1.0","type":"link"}